Lost

abandonedchild @ 2001-06-14T16:52:00

2001-06-13T20:50:35Z

damn her name is Jo-t

anyways came home at 9 parents got pissed off.
Kevin is grounded by his mother but i sneaked over his house step-father doesn't care.hehe
Damn I think Jo-t is grounded too She wasn't in school

abandonedchild @ 2001-06-13T17:34:00

2001-06-12T21:34:53Z

Jody I talked to yesterday it was fun now today talked to her met her you know I'm shy not much talk though and god she's hot and pretty

Nathan just met today not much talk either

abandonedchild @ 2001-06-12T17:23:00

2001-06-12T21:25:21Z

At my Friends house there playing video games
Kevin playing with Nathan and Jody.

Jody likes Kevin or so Nathan says that, so Kevin is just friends with Jody. So Jody and Nathan are friends.

Kevin is My close friend probably would say that but do you consider a goofy friend that doesn't act serious a friend.

abandonedchild @ 2001-05-24T19:09:00

2001-05-23T23:03:26Z

blahh!!!!!!!!
I'm at my friends house playing video games.
Such amatuers

abandonedchild @ 2001-05-05T08:24:00

2001-05-05T12:33:49Z

going with my dad to work

abandonedchild @ 2001-05-02T15:59:00

2001-05-02T20:10:55Z

I didn't go to the graveyard my stupid brother didn't want to go

I'm going

2001-05-01T17:07:25Z

I'm really bored right now
I'm going to the graveyard on Astoria in like
76 st
thats my new favorite place other than that place in forest hills or that place in roosevelt me shall say Botanica

poor poor baby

2001-05-01T15:45:14Z

My little bro broke his arm it must freaking hurt.
So i'm taking care of him right now, Yah! no school for me haha shit i'm so happy

abandonedchild @ 2001-04-28T16:16:00

2001-04-28T20:31:53Z

Someone commented me no one ever comments me!!
I usually comment them!!!!

Oh well, Shit!!!!!! I found out darlene has a boyfriend. I fucking hope it's just a friend.
Found out there r some goths in school. I just too blind to see them. I'm in my own hateful world!!!!
I'm leaving bye

drained some love out

2001-04-28T19:19:19Z

My dad keeps on screaming at me it's sooooooo annoying. Me and him had a fight and he said he won't make fun of me or call me names or hit me.
I told him if he does do one of them I would run away and continue cutting myself!!!!!!

face it he'll never listen to me I am nothing to him I am usually quiet he doesn't see or hear me same as this chick I used to like, names Adela. also everyone in school!!!! I should stop whining. God please kill me from this tragic and annoying world.

abandonedchild @ 2001-04-20T21:00:00

2001-04-21T01:09:11Z

Schools a bummer!!!!!! I hate it

I met some friends online all girls lol. there like 19 and younger, oh well gotta go eat dinner

Breathless

2001-04-15T07:16:07Z

I so sad I cut myself I dont know why but it felt good. Today I was fucking hyper I was walking around and couldnt stop. My dad saw the cut and went crazy, he fucking slapped me it hurt. I started crying like a bitch it hurt me to think my dad the father i love hit me. I promised myself if he ever lay a hand on me again I would run away.

Anyways I got my sister in trouble I cant stop crying she probably hates me. I cant fall asleep
my sis which is very hot hates me my only friend, best sister and my only rival. She is so beautiful and smart. I got her in trouble cuz of me I dont have a life so I have to copy hers, I'm so pathetic. My older sister theresa interrupted and helped out and started crying and screaming I love her I guess she loves me even though i'm a brat and she ran out of the house.
I'm really hope my sister forgives me.

abandonedchild @ 2001-04-14T13:46:00

2001-04-14T18:08:06Z

I'm eatig watching my cousins dog watch me.
I'm watching the movie foxfire awwwww!!!!! Its a angelina jolie movie awww shes so hot I wanna hump her.

Excuse me

2001-04-14T17:44:01Z

My mom said I dont have to listen to my dad she said I'm excused because Were younger

I'm okay

2001-04-13T22:13:54Z

I was just playing alittle bit video games with cousin and her friend.

Today

2001-04-13T22:06:27Z

I hate today I was in an arguement with my sister and brother. I should be use to it I end up crying like fucking pussy. I cry every day in pain a worthless piece of shit. Not one cares if I cry I'm in pain I suffer.
Being alone is better than having friends or family to rip your heart out

No Meat!!!!!!!!!!

2001-04-13T05:38:19Z

damn can't have meat.shitttttttt
I'm hugry I don't want vegetable shit damn why not I cant eat veggies.
Something called good friday, dad is so fucking religous I hate it I dont have to pray I talk to him when I think and if he watches us doesnt he know!!!!When I pray dont have to fucking put my ugly gross hands together. What to show proof I'm praying I think it in my head
calm down you little pussy!!!!!!!
Not helping....

Family fucking sucks

2001-04-13T05:24:20Z

It sucks my family is my only friends.
damn and they live in New fucking Jersey and other side in seattle.
I want my cousin to come over but my aunt is working.
Yeah!!!!!!!!! tomorrow they might come over cuz
my mom and aunt work at the same place and they don't have work.KKKKKKKKKKKKKOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!

Tragic Rabbit

2001-04-12T04:39:14Z

Tragic rabbit, a painting.
The caked ears green like rolled corn.
The black forehead pointing at the stars.
A painting on my wall, alone

as rabbits are
and aren't. Fat red cheek,
all Art, Trembling nose,
a habit hard to break as not.

You too can be a tragic rabbit; green and red
your back, blue your manly little chest.
But if you're ever goaded into being one
beware the True Flesh, it

will knock you off your tragic horse
and break your tragic colors like a ghost
breaks marble; your wounds will heal
so quickly water

will be jealous.
Rabbits on white paper painted
outgrow all charms against their breeding wild;
and their rolled corn ears become horns.

So watch out if the tragic life feels fine-
caught in that rabbit trap
all colors look like sunlight's swords,
and scissors like The Living Lord.

Stan Rice
Some Lamb (1975)

abandonedchild @ 2001-04-11T11:57:00

2001-04-11T16:14:59Z

I'm talking to chris atleast some excitement. Rosy is right next to me. Donuts...yummy no just kidding

Girly

2001-04-11T14:46:52Z

Boys keep on trying to talk to me cuz my sis sn sounds very girly. So I try not to talk to them and there is nothing to do. I feel embarrassed cuz they think I'm a girl.
Well FFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK
YYYYYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!

stupidity

2001-04-11T14:36:20Z

I wrote in my sis journal by mistake!!!!!

Yesterday

2001-04-11T14:02:05Z

Yesterday I was so freaking bored, Then finally
Rosanna(my sister) was going to the park. Something to do. Arriving at the park seeing my sister smoking just fucking surprises me, while she was with Chris, James and Monta I was with my brother climbing up a tree, I shouldn't say that My bro brian couldn't get his fat ass up it. Ever since he was like 8 he still could never climb it.
Anyways my sister and the 4 guys were smoking about fucking four ciggarrettes in 30 minutes. Though they are very cool, and goofy. I thought when your much you should act more mature but damn their goofy, never expect to see my sis act how I saw her in the park. I don't know them to well but I guess you can say I'm alittle shy their older and especially since I have no friends.

Darlene

2001-04-11T02:35:18Z

One day this hot goth chick named Darlene, Was going up the stairs while I was going down. she was talking to her friends and when we were near each other I saw her look at me but I didn't dare look at her. Then as she was going in the door she looked at me and smiled I really felt better, it brightened up my day.

abandonedchild @ 2001-04-10T13:04:00

2001-04-10T17:12:32Z

I'm so happy I have vacation, now I don't have to go to that stupid bitchy school for a week. I don't really have anything to do. Every fucking day goes by to fucking fast I don't have a chance to do anything. To bad I don't have any freaking friends please feel sorry for me. LOL please, you don't have to laugh. I have to go my bro is bitching he wants to make his own stupid journal